Fly Away

fly away
lonely bird
go to your happy place
soar free & high & proud

spread your wings
lonely bird
and show us how
beautiful you are
feathers shining brightly
in the mid-day sun

laugh out loud
lonely bird
and feel the joy
wash over you

find your niche
lonely bird
and do the things
you were born to do

be happy, be free
and be lonely no more

how could i have known

i had no idea
you were sensitive
forgive me my ignorance

my mind races
my heart aches
of loneliness

my madness
is all consuming

control it
i cannot

but willing to try
i am

now that i know...

i felt resented, rejected
i didn't know you
were hurting too

you hide it well

i, on the other hand,
do not

i am an open book

i love fiercely & completely
which leaves me
vulnerable, scared

but i don't know
any other way to be
and i won't apologize for it

i can only try to
not let it consume me
to not get crazy for a moment

and to realize you're hurting too

shIT happens

i'm a coward, a fake
a phony even to myself

happiness is my face
my shield, my cover

no one wants to see me sad
not me

the strong one, the happy one

it's too depressing, all-consuming,
to imagine me sad

fuck you
it happens anyway

out of reach

do you know
can you
will you ever

i can't tell you
you're out of reach
i love you too much to try

i won't hurt you again
i'll die if i do

do you know
can you ever,
really know

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beauty- ragged and true
mangled, hidden, hiding
where are you?
i lost you somehow
somewhere
a heart that breaks,
is broken
crying, screaming,
scratching for help
hiding from love
hiding from the world
but i know you.
and i feel you
even still
you cannot hide
from me
for i am you too
i am your match.