how could i have known

i had no idea
you were sensitive
forgive me my ignorance

my mind races
my heart aches
of loneliness

my madness
is all consuming

control it
i cannot

but willing to try
i am

now that i know...

i felt resented, rejected
i didn't know you
were hurting too

you hide it well

i, on the other hand,
do not

i am an open book

i love fiercely & completely
which leaves me
vulnerable, scared

but i don't know
any other way to be
and i won't apologize for it

i can only try to
not let it consume me
to not get crazy for a moment

and to realize you're hurting too