Apologetic Attempt

I owe you an apology
this much is true
I never should have
doubted you

No longer will I fall victim
to insecurity
There is no time for that
You deserve more faith,
more credit

I am ashamed of myself
my thoughts, my actions
Surprised by how
deeply I can be affected
By how quickly I mistrust
even myself

You are loyal
I am certain
But how do I tell you
I'm sorry?